December 31, 2007
7:43 A.M.
I made a concious effort last night to go to sleep ealier. This effort was met with resistance from my body. I lay awake, thinking, for almost two hours thereafter. When I did fall asleep, I dreamt of a particular Vice President where I work. The VPs were rotating responsibilty of coaching youth sports’ teams and it was his turn. He ran out with them very energetically for their first bout. I was there with my ex-wife observing, when violence broke out and I was close to the fight. He became a bear and smashed us all down. It was very uncharacteristic and freightening.
A few hours before I went to sleep, I got an email, the third or fourth correspondence from the same individual via an online dating service. The communications were very relaxed and introspective. This final email was a response to my age. She said that she had one rule, and she didn’t date anyone younger than her oldest son and I was. That’s fine and understanadable. Then she followed it up with “go off and play now dear,” with some other derogatory comments thrown inbetween.
8:43 A.M.
Overheard from a phone conversation: “So I started to get jealous, and I prayed to God, ‘Don’t let me be jealous, because jealously leads to hate,’ and I realized that I have children and I don’t have to sit at home and do nothing.”
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Yeah...Dreaming: I've been dreaming a lot lately meself. Interesting dreams. Dreams I do not wish to wake from because I want to know how they all turn out. Dreams I uncharacteristically remember for more than a fleeting second. Ahhhh. Perchance to dream!
As for the online woman: what a bitch! I mean if she isn't interested in dating someone of a certain age, that is her deal, not anyone else's, certainly not yours. And you know I say that being a "woman of a certain age" so I feel I know what I'm talking about. How about responding, "Go off and fuck yourself 'cause I just lost total interest in your playground now that I've seen the way you project your hangups onto others."
As I say, it's one thing to have hangups or "rules" but own them, OK? You don't have to be insulting about it. Her dating "ambassador" totally left the building and you got a peek into the real her.
Her fuckin' loss... NEXT!
Finally: Overheard conversation.
Good dialogue snag. Points for that one. Or, "Hey, those darn kids are good for something, afterall!"
Peace Out.
Portia
Yes, that was the only time in memory that I deleted all the emails from someone immediately, almost in a cathartic purging attempt. I wanted to write back and express it, but I just decided to let it go.
Sometimes you read something or hear something and it just makes you step back. Her loss? I'm not sure about that, no one wins when Wallace is at the plate.
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